Dear Brothers

I know you'll probably never read this, but i'd just like to say that I really miss those days where we would build forts and get into big arguments about who gets which cushion and whose fort is better. Your forts were always the best. Even through all the bullying you put me through I still loved you. Loved you so much that I would smuggle you orange juice and food when you were "grounded" in your room. I used to think you had good intentions for me, so i trusted whatever you told me. I guess you took me as your own personal amusement by selling me your broken yo-yo for a ridiculous price, tricking me into thinking whatever I had that you wanted sucked so you could have it for yourself, and well doing what older brothers do. When I started to make friends of my own, I found you would always steal them away from me. Whenever they met you they would always chose you over me, and it hurt. To this day i still remember you mocking me by asking how many friends i had, and when i was counting them with my fingers you said "Ha, you can count how many friends you have? That's pathetic". From then on I felt like it all went down hill from there. As I was entering middle school you told me not to talk to you at school because you didn't want people to know that I was your sister. Was i really that gross and shameful to be called your sister? But what hurts the most is that you would think that I would rat you out to our parents about the stupid things you do. I don't approve of the stuff you do,but I can't stop you. I don't even know you anymore, there is this whole other life I know you live. I wish you could talk to me, but the only time i can actually talk to you is when you are intoxicated. That's the time you actually talk to me and tell me how much you care for me, and by hearing it from other people. I wish you wouldn't push me away when i try to spend time with you.


As for you, I really appreciate you a lot. I love that you'll come into my room when you get home late at night just to talk to me. It's crazy how much we are alike in personality. I don't know what I would do with out you. Please don't move out any time soon :(

okay good night, I'm tired.